Core of Self
If you can't control yourself, how do you expect to control your
magick? Control doesn't mean having no emotions - Spok was not a magical creature. Often times working up emotions can be a way to raise power. However, to affectively aim and release that power towards our intention we have to remain in control of ourselves. Becoming hysterical raises chaotic energy, but if there's no bubble holding it together or orb it's being fed into to throw towards our objective, what good is it? The best way I have found to control myself while connecting with an emotion to feed my work is by a method I call "Core of Self".
"Core of Self" is my way of dropping into myself. I can feel emotions, thoughts and energy swirling around me, but the center of Self is like the eye of a storm. There is peace and certainty there. Before starting energy work ground and center yourself - find the Core of Self. Cast your Circle or define what you will feed energy into, then reaching outward, raise the energy
around you. For some spells I will raise energy within myself, then lift it up and out; but for some spells I find it may be safer to raise the energy outside of my core. This technique is a delicate one - the greater the power, the greater the control you need. It's like creating a whirlpool in the ocean.
To protect your core Self from the energy you raise, because sometimes the intent of your spell is not one you wish to absorb for yourself, is done through protection magick. Strengthening your aura and creating layers of inner walls is necessary to separate the core when need be. There are several protective meditations I will do to accomplish this. All protective meditations I have come across work to strengthen the outter most layers of aura and mind. To strengthen the inner ones and to create new layers within yourself, you must learn to travel inwards.
Focus on pulling your energy from the room around you down into
yourself. Then step by step draw the energy from your extremeties towards your stomach. Move your consciousness from your head to your stomach. Find yourself walking on a path. Is this path lit or is it dark? Is it outside or inside a structure? Note details using all your senses. This path leads you to a door. Open it and enter your core, the dwelling of Self. This is where I have found my Self; the inner part of me that many would describe as my guide because it is not in human form. I do not consider it my guide because it is part of me. Explanations are not necessary, spoken words are not necessary. Mental images, emotions and energy are our forms of communication. There is no distinction
between me and Self except what I perceive; it is not an extraneous spirit.
First practice "Core of Self". Then do protective meditations
working from your core outwards to strengthen Self and create layers. Then when it is time to do magic, you can slip as far back into layers of Self as you want to raise deeper magic and to control yourself. Your emotions and outward motions can become highly energized without losing control of your inner Self, thus allowing you to focus your will.
Article written by Tiffany Maely. Originally published November 8, 2011.